LoveHavana

鄭雪莉從今天開始就一直叫我女王
她說這是期間限定的稱謂直到我生日結束
莫名地令人發噱
不過TNTB的存在確實陪我走過好多人生的大風大浪
(Steven看到這邊又要說我講這樣風塵味很重了)

今天莫名地開始懷念起一些過去的時光
人好像都會這樣 總是不懂得珍惜當下
老是在失去或過去了之後才頻頻回首
感嘆當時的美好
不喜歡也不希望自己成為這樣的人
卻似乎不可避免的陷入雙魚座的悲劇輪迴裡
我不要當雙魚座了啦厚厚厚
很吃虧的星座氣鼠我了

但是今天莫名的交集讓我好吃驚
沒想到真的是這麼好意思的人
那我該如何是好呢?
只能像貝貝說的:放馬過來吧
不然能怎麼辦呢?
只希望和貝貝一樣厲害就好了....

對呀 這些人都是老師呢
我想 可以學到好多東西
如果 我僥倖存活地下來
一定 可以成為厲害的人!!!

Why it happened at the same day?
Why you called?And why you called, too?
I don't know why.
My feeling mostly is shock.
But I am soooooo weak to turn you down.
Although that's what I should do.

Looking forward and trying not to hurt myself and get hurt is my priority.
I have passed the point of no return.
So what I could do is go.........

Moving on.

視而不見
沒想到 會變成這樣子
我想
也許這才是真相
只是
怎麼可以這麼令人難以忍受
當初
我不犯誰 努力低調
卻和一年前的處境差別如此大
我想
走錯了一步或是看錯了人
就再也回不了頭
只剩下
難以吞下的委屈和苦澀
但這就是人生
我又能如何呢

Ces't La Vie

そして私は静かに叫び続ける
いつかが誰かに
対話をしてくれるまで








然後我會持續默默地聲嘶力竭
　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　
直到哪天　　　　　　　
　　　　　　　　
有人回應為止　　　　

看著你們咕溜咕溜的眼睛 似乎會因此而迷失在其中
可是為什麼 我總是會被外界的不好的事給迷惑
也許這就是我的宿命

看著清澈的眼裡反射的我自己
我可以一直留在那裡嗎?

可是既然決定了
那就這樣吧

Let's talk this over it's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it somehting you said?
Don't leave me hanging in a city so dead
Held up so high on such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

CHORUS:
You were everything everything that I wanted
You were meant to be supposed to be but we lost it
All of the memories so close to me just fade away
All this time you were preteding so much for my happy ending
oh oh, oh oh, So much for my happy ending,
oh oh, oh oh

You've got your dumb friends I know what they say (they say)
They tell you I'm difficut but so are they (so are they)
But they don't know me do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do (all the shit that you do)
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

CHORUS

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

He was everything everything that I wanted
We were meant to be supposed to be but we lost it
All of the memories so close to me just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

You were everything everything that I wanted
We were meant to be supposed to be but we lost it
All of the memories so close to me just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh oh oh so much for my happy ending
Oh oh oh oh so much for my happy ending

Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh

讓耳機　循環這頻率
反覆超重低音　震動著寧靜
擋風玻璃裏　愛成了蒙太奇
我　哼著我自己　的歎息

只是愛與被愛的比例
不是愛或不愛的問題
如果明天還有好天氣　都已經跟你沒關係

＊你讓我夢見了太美的夢　生命中不可承受的輕
　你　證明了每一顆流星　都遙不可及
　你因為了我每個所以　所以了這一百年孤寂
　你　灑下默默無言的雨　一滴
　一滴一滴一滴滴　遺忘的淚滴

偶陣雨　偶爾會天晴
還好星光熠熠　好心的提醒
一個人追尋　一個人的和平
我　看見我自己　的天際

愛真的需要一點勇氣
就看我們敢不敢忘記
我和彩虹最短的直徑　也不一定沒有你不行
＊

就讓我狠狠的加速前進　脫離你所給我的夢境
再　零點零零一公釐　就可以清醒
我決定不再等你決定　我決定不再當局者迷
我決定屬於我自己的黎明
距離你一世紀　下一個世紀

I am a fool.
How could it ever end if I stay as foolish as I am now.
Trying so hard, keeping awake.
No more cry and no more tears.
I did it, but why I still feel awful?

They are right.
I am just too coward to face the inconvenient truth.

魚說:只因為我活在水中
所以你看不見我的淚

說什麼天天天藍
說什麼月月月圓
晴天是為了下雨
圓月是為了月殘
花是為凋落而開
草是為枯萎而綠
你我一夕的相聚
只是為了長久的分離

一個車站以後還是一個車站
一個昨天以後還是一個昨天
童年是人在江湖
紅顏是白髮蒼蒼
故鄉是人在千里之外
才會想起的一個名詞

如果你我只是
並排而不能連理的兩棵樹
如果你我只是
同一水中游向不同方向的兩隻魚
請不要把你的手伸向我
請不要問我眼中有沒有淚

魚問:誰叫我是水中的魚呢?

想要I Pod
想要CUXI
想要項鍊
想要戒指
想要好多好多東西

想要重新背起日文
想要靠自己來慢慢學日文
想要做很多事情
想要讓自己重新來過

想要找到重心
想要變得堅強
想要變得勇敢

所以眼淚 我不要了

You fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images

You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images

And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you'd never ever forget these images, no

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy for you
To walk right in and out of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

-------------------A Fine Frenzy

重視的感覺就是「每一刻」，所以在看這部電影時，你也真的會注意到每一刻，而不是只把它當做一部一百分鐘的片子來看而已。而這種短暫的時間概念，在電影中又有好幾種不同的意義。

Every second counts.」每一秒鐘都算數，就算你只跨越雷池一下下，也是跨越了雷池。你說「我只是一時放縱」，那也不算是理由，這「一時」，也可能毀掉一段美好的關係。
也有很正面的意義，最美好的那一刻，大家應該多多少少有過這樣的經歷，一段很好的時光，不希望它結束，想把那一刻留住，卻又知道天下沒有不散的筵席。《Cashback》就能讓你把這樣特別的一刻拿來慢慢品嘗

「一刻」和「永恆」明明有這麼大的差距，用這麼簡單的方法，又能讓一刻變成永恆。


So could I really say goodbye?
From the bottom of my heart, I know.
I know this one is no good for me. But I am win over again and again.

"站在狂風的天臺一望無際 這一座孤獨的城市
在天空與高樓交界的盡頭 誰追尋空曠的自由

陽光覆滿這一刻寧靜的我 隔絕了喧囂和冷漠
川流不息的人遊蕩在街頭 誰能聽見誰的寂寞

找一個人惺惺相惜 找一顆心心心相印
在這個宇宙 我是獨一無二 沒人能取代

不管怎樣 怎樣都會受傷 傷了又怎樣
至少我很堅強 我很坦蕩

夜幕籠罩燦爛的一片燈海 多少人多少種無奈
在星光裡遺忘昨天的傷害 一覺醒來還有期待

我不放棄愛的勇氣 我不懷疑會有真心
我要握住一個最美的夢給未來的自己

一天一天 一天推翻一天 堅持的信仰
我會記住自己今天的模樣
有一個人惺惺相惜 有一顆心心心相印
拋開過去 我想認真去追尋未來的自己

不管怎樣 怎樣都會受傷 傷了又怎樣
至少我很堅強 我很坦蕩

我不放棄愛的勇氣 我不懷疑會有真心
我要握住一個最美的夢給未來的自己

不管怎樣 怎樣都會受傷 傷了又怎樣
至少我很堅強 我很坦蕩
未來的你會懂我的瘋狂"

這是我拿來激勵我自己的歌
因為我好怕我失去勇氣

Losing Faith is what I am so afraid of.
Trying to stay strong and keep myself together.

與小孩相約很衝動的為了Johnny Depp 而去看了瘋狂理髮師
他的憤怒表情真的很厲害
Tim Burton的黑色幽默手法已經發揮到了一個極致了我想
但是片中散發著濃厚的絕望氣息
卻以如此殘酷血猩卻帶著詼諧的手法呈現
只能說 真的非常特別
就如同人生一般的複雜 一樣的Dark and twisted....

但是誤殺他深愛的Lucy的那個moment我心都停了
只要想到Mrs. Lovette為了得到Todd而緊抓不放
這又何嘗不是大多數人的做法呢
只是
好殘忍的一切喔.....

但是Joanna的橋段感覺有點多餘.............

"在旅行的空間變化中重新找出愛情的距離。"

這是一部跟"距離"有關的片子
有人需要距離來療傷
有人需要距離來呼吸
有人用距離逃避感情

看了很多人的觀後感才發現
當下驚嘆於Elizabeth可以一個人遠走天涯的勇氣的我
似乎和她選擇了類似的方式只是
I chose the easier way and temporary way.

苦澀中帶著甜蜜又帶著傷感的味道
就如同Blueburry pie一樣

The way Norah sings just like the way I feel from life and the movie.
It just seems to be so good if it could really happen to have a happy ending in real life.