LoveHavana

明明今天是Christmas 應該是充滿幸福和喜悅的一天
但是 假裝的情緒始終壓抑不住
直到 聽到你那哽咽抑鬱的聲音
於是 看著前方莫名紅了的眼眶
以為 經歷過上星期的陰霾黑暗
就能 冷眼旁觀身旁的種種是非
可是 心底深處的晦暗揮之不去
因此

我很抱歉 親愛的 我希望你一直都很開心
不要受我影響
我的易感我的自卑我的鑽牛角尖
就都留給我吧

I am so sorry that I couldn't share the joy with you in such a warm holiday.
But I am really trying so hard to act as usual.
But I didn't find out the darkness is leaking out and make you infected.
I thought maintaining status quo would be the only way to survive from all this chaos.
Mask, disguise may be the best mean to protect myself from falling apart.
But my dear friend, please stay possitive stay in the brightness.
Because I don't want you in this endless darkness.

Maybe I just don't want to know.......
about getting hurt, about everything.
I am just being afraid.